Anna & Toby, Evan & Jordan, thought for food

Trained out to Devner, drove back 17 hours with Anna and Toby, had a crazy evening last night consisting of:

All 3 Hoover children,

Lauren Dillon,

a nice dinner,

Evan returning,

Lindsay and I making signs for Evan's returning,

Lindsay telling stories about meeting the Bears,

Peter and I dumpster diving, listening to Sigur Ros, getting pulled over, and Robyn getting excited about it.

Stephanie is canceling her phone plan and i'm a little worried about her- she is always so discontent and i can't imagine her ever being happy. she's also really irresponsible and i dont know if that's a gift or a vice. probably both.

i haven't done any planning for the puppet show- 1. stop motion, 2. dream machine, 3. cosmia

something needs to happen. hopefully ev can help me put something tangible together.

i have 3 jobs (through the slc) in the fall and i'm stressed about organizing the community garden. i'm gonna do a bad job, i can just tell. shit. at least i got that organic growing vegetable book.

i wonder if we'll do our pilgramage. i found information about boats and they're expensive. but it looks like they at least exist, so that's good.

thinking about next year and the future, i could be in GR (ngo? americorps? other?), I could be doing peace corps (doubt it), teach english somewhere (kindof doubt it), I want to live in the netherlands sometime but I dont know how unrealistic that is... probably extremely unrealistic, or i could just wwoof all over the place... but that doesn't pay the bills... I am hestitant thinking about the future because I don't know how to factor my friends into my plans. I could easily go off somewhere by myself, that is for sure.

i just need to farm to better understand and prepare to be a farmer,

i need to live in europe to see how paths are made and bridges are built and reasonability is lived,

i need to save money,

i need to figure out a way to speak some other language because english is lame,

i need to live in community and be surrounded by lovers.

red wine, 150 moving away party, lukedot

it is amazing and disturbing how much my perception of this space has changed. this house- my interactions with it, my familiarity with it. i remember it feeling so astranged from human life (something a home should be intimately connected to) and so overwhelmingly large. i couldn't keep track of it, it's energy was too much to keep in my conscious at once.

however, after hosting that party today and feeling more ownership of this place, i realized how comfortable i've become here. i am able to see myself existing in this place and i've adapted into a realm of functionality- it's amazing. given enough time, we people can adjust to just about any space.