kanji test, instrumental horse feathers, last hot toddy of the season.

at this point, i've gone on my spring break trip to three rivers with the VGR's and tomorrow we have a meeting about our (stephanie, liz, and my) seriousness with moving there next year.

i've still got an online webinar with interac next monday,

and i had a conversation with rachelle today about possible living situations in grand rapids next year.

so my hands are in three pots at this point. either way, i think i would be happy, right? but is that the objective? it sounds nice to do something with rob and kirsten because of how much it's tangential (in the way of servitude). i wouldn't get much money from it, i would essentially be living alone, and it would be to encourage rob and kirsten. although i probably could get into it, i don't see three rivers as being my focus at this point.

staying in grand rapids would be fun. living with rachelle? knowing people like hannah mast, michael rodriguez, kristen mccue, and liz would be around? plus nathaniel and heather for the fall... having a garden in sarah state's back yard... experiencing a whole season and better detox from calvin, but still staying in grand rapids... knowing the barth house isn't going anywhere... sounds comfortable. the only reason i would want to stay in grand rapids now (urgently) is to establish some kind of permanence here. then i could move away for a while and come back to something, rather than running away now before establishing an intent. i don't know what i'm talking about. but ben jackson's got a great smile.

going to japan would be nostalgic, completely severing, and feed a drastically different part of my soul that hasn't been active for some time now. am i even sure that part of me still exists? i can't imagine walking into narita and not being stirred by the "おかえりなさい"... but it could happen, conceivably. if i went to japan, i would be driving around hokkaido through rice paddies, in a japanese village, living the dream.

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